light_mischief | [come sail away] ic inbox (season 1)

cant be that we've only talked a couple times
but this is the first he's invited me back...
should have gone back sooner
so maybe youre right, you do know him better
i dont like allowing myself to get my hopes up
but if i ask and you were wrong. you owe me a piece of cake from the cafe.

:) peter appreciates my overactive paranoia too.

all he remembers from his life is loss and pain and anger. and that's what he puts people through here too, pushing them to their limits. the same desperation to get free. maybe he's looking for that flash of power, that allowed him to break his bonds in the first place. from one of us.

If I'm wrong, I will bring you the entire cafe's dessert display to your door every morning for the rest of our time on the ship.

He certainly does seem to appreciate you. You'll tell me if that ever changes, won't you?

I think you may be right. I wonder if his hope was (is?) for a passenger to generate the emotional power needed. I assume, given the state of things, that it would likely not end well. Could it be from all of us? Would that help? Hm. Lots to think about.

Admittedly, I haven't asked him what we're going to do next. The experiment cannot continue as it is, even if he wants it to.

wow i almost hope youre wrong with an offer like that

youre really just bitter you never got your chance to skullbash malcolm huh
do you like peter better? by the way

haha is that why there are so many teenagers

no i dont think it's sustainable. but. whatever possible future there might be. i hope we get to stay together. i know you two will... go off to conquer the cosmos or something neat. but dont forget about me.

If I'm right, I might still do it. But only once, and only so I can say "I told you so" to your face, when you're too tired to react.

I'm still waiting for the day he reappears. It'll be short and sweet. And yes, I prefer Peter over Malcolm. Malcolm was fine, of course, but Peter has a smoldering intensity I personally prefer.

I absolutely hate how much sense that makes. ...Clarke would make a great source of that energy, now that I think about it.

I'm not much for conquest. I don't know what the future holds, but I'll do everything in my power to ensure you have the best possible life.

see how you are, taking advantage of morning being my weakest time of day

is it anyone's fault if theyre too weak to survive here?
'smoldering intensity' hehe
malcolm was the first time i ever felt wanted
he was kind and patient and able to view me as more than my past
we never even really argued. but i'm not so sure how much he got me.
but with peter it's already so different. he sees right through me, my tricks, knows all the same types of maneuvers.
and we have argued and i think i respect him more for it.
not sure how to feel about any of that?

oh she's definitely going to explode.

hah, fair, 'something neat' then. don't know how long of one i'll ever have, but it's already far better than i ever dared expect.

No. It says nothing about a person if they fail to survive. It's something that will happen to all of us eventually, unless we take steps to end the system that consumes our energy.

I would never trust a relationship totally free of arguments, just the same as I would never trust one comprised only by them. The fact that you can respect him both during and after one is a good thing, in my opinion.

No matter how long or short our time is after this is all over, it's already been an immense pleasure. I've begun to pity myself living life back home. He has no idea what he's missing out on.

but i wonder if it was for the best, since he wasnt all that happy
and me wanting him to stay was selfish when i know he wanted out
is there really a way to stop the cycle without... ending all this, though?
every system relies on energy, something cant come from nothing

he and maximilien dont get along
ive made it clear that i dont intend to interfere in that, the rivalry is rather cute
as long as they dont expect me to take sides

i am always curious what future it is i managed to avoid
but i dont think i want months worth of memories shoved into my mind all at once...
how are you handling that, have things settled

I don't know. I suppose we'll have to find out through painstaking trial and error.

Maximilien not getting along with somebody? Color me shocked. 💀
He's too much of a James Bond villain for Peter, and Peter is more of the brash, self-possessed hero type that Maximilien hates. He only tolerates it with me because I tricked him into becoming my friend before revealing my nature.

They've settled into place, to the point where I sometimes forget they weren't always there. It's odd. I used to think that it made me less myself and more another me. That's silly, though. It's only made me more myself than I previously was.

...It is, however, impossible to talk about without sounding crazy.

you know you can talk to me about anything
especially the crazy

I know, and I know that I can trust you to keep anything I tell you a secret. Of course, I'm still not going to share all the tawdry details of my love life... Just my borderline madness.

it's fine i have my own source of filthy thoughts now
:) but madness is always best shared with friends
you had to suffer my kizzy theory so it's only fair

It was suspicious timing. I don't really blame you.

Did you hear about Stede, by the way? And how it's now "Captain Hands?"

i have. he insists the disappearance wasnt his doing. speaking of suspicious timing. but that the captain did make him an offer, for the contract.

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